I need a new job. Hell, a new life maybe because mine just seems to REALLY fucking suck right now or at least to me anyway. I mean seriously. Someone, something is gunning for me this week it seems cause fucking stupid shit keeps happening to me that doesn't even make sense.
So far, I've been involved in a near fight that was bullshit to begin with and now my fucking jobs being threatened because of some redheaded bitch of a whore and various other people that are just trying their damnedest to fuck me over and get my ass canned. And all because ain't a one of them got the fucking BALLS to come say a fucking word to my fucking face about any of it. I mean shit, I'm doing my job. I'm not the MASTER O' RETAIL for crying out loud or anything like that. Hell, I'm lucky to be doing any good at it at all.
I'm the Jack of all trades for fucks sake. And it's true in how the saying goes because a Jack of all trades is a master of none. And damn it that's what I am! I'm a fast learner and can do just about anything I want to but there's always going to be someone who's fucking better at whatever it is I'm doing than me. I've accepted that. But fucking fuck what the hell am I doing wrong here? I mean seriously. I AM SOOOOOOO SICK AND FUCKING TIRED OF THIS FUCKING HIGH SCHOOL BEHIND THE BACK BULLSHIT! And people keep telling me not to let it get to me and blah blah blah. Easier said than done in my case. It's one thing if you come out and say something to me straight up. I can take that pretty well. But what hurts my feelings and rubs me wrong is this whole finding shit out second hand. I've NEVER dealt with that kind of shit well. NEVER! And I don't see that shit changing much anytime soon. Seriously, this shit bothers me so damn much that I'm nearly in tears just typing this post.
I just need to get the hell away from here. That's all there is to it. I need a new job, a new state, a new everything all together. I'm done.