Oh I do believe

I think I've finally decided to just let it all go. I've been harboring a grudge against the selfish prick for so long that I started to hate him. But, now, I'd say I'm over it. He's not going to change no matter what happens so I've decided to just say fuck it and let go of my grudge. It's childish anyway. I'm not going to worry about whatever he has to say about anything anymore. I guess you could say I forgive him. Amazingly enough, I still love the ass. I only hope that one day he'll realize the mistakes he's made with me but I'm not going to ask him for anything that involves money ever again. He's the great disappointment but he is still my father and there's nothing I can do to change that fact. So, it would seem that I'm growing up some more while he continues to play the role of the selfish brat. Whatever. We're just going to continue to do what we want and leave it at that. I'm not mad. I'm not upset. Just honest about what he's said, done and how he acts in general. I don't even dislike Vicky anymore. I just really could care less about either of them and how they want to act.

And so, life goes on.


I can't believe I'm going to be 23 on the 28th of this month. Seriously. It's a little weird to think about.